disappointment.

was anyone else pissed off that michael johns got deleted from american idol ?! what the heck.

school was blah today. i saw a penis ! of a pig of course, and its brains. delicious. today was incredibly hot, and i felt bad again hoping that van's mom could take me home but i was NOT walking home in that heat. ugh it would've done me some good though. next time, next time.

tonight's the dinner thing with mother and my aunt and tammy. we're eating italian food, and i love italian food, so it shouldn't be that bad. i could always just bond with tammy and talk about god the whole time, hahahaha.

last night i was reading my old journal, the one i kept since like seventh grade. i stopped writing in it like last summer because i was so incredibly lazy, but i decided to read it. i never realized how massively pathetic i was. i had this huge crush on this one guy, and i admit it after i read the numerous pages of "omg i can't wait to see him again", that i was obsessed. i was crazy and i laugh at myself at that, because now whenever i see him at school i feel stupid knowing that he knew about my obsessiveness and he probably thought that i was some psycho freak. HAHA, oh man.